Pusong Bato (part2 of 3)

and … my friends call me pusong bato-
 at umuso pa talaga ang kantang “Pusong Bato”.

 I honestly don’t know how to react when people call me with it… I smile or laugh but feel weird inside… but if you remember my statement on part 1, I have mentioned that I can’t force myself to love someone.

Pihikan daw ako sabi nila, choosy or mataas ang standards. I’m not. I never set standards before b’coz I never had pictured myself of having a boyfriend. When some asks me regarding boyfriend before sasabihin ko lang… “anu yun? Wala yan sa vocabulary ko” (laugh-haha!)-pa innocent effect! ABNORMAL!

Most of my friends asked me to try… date and loosen up!
Hay! Here it is… bam! Ehm… I almost fall, for several times; high school, college, after college and recently, but maybe it wasn’t enough to call for it – and I also remember before because I was pushed to try (pressure I guess) I forced my self to like someone, I tried but it turned worst. I realized every time I’m forcing myself to him, the more I resent.

Vulnerability?
 They said ladies fall easily when they are vulnerable (kaya madaming babaeng naloloko) because that’s where they’re at their weakest. Yes, I’ve been there twice (I think) but before I eventually fall. . . something happened and I thank God I snap out immediately! Hehehe!

Love at First Sight?
…believe it or not naranasan ko na din ma-love at first sight… yep! You read it right, some don’t believe on it (ako din naman nun eh) but I’ve been there… darn! Hirap maka-get-over!

Koryente? Butterfly on your Stomach?
I’ve been hearing this on TV’s before; I thought it was just mare exaggeration. "kakornihan kung baga". I don’t remember my first reaction but I think I was shocked and maybe I withdrawn or maybe . . .

Oh! Well! pusong bato ba?… I tried but it seems that... maybe it wasn't the right moment.

part 3 to be continued...